Me and RJ Knight have been working on videos for about easily over a year now. We have made a lot of videos in the time. Sadly, despite the length of time that we have been working on these videos, only around 20 have been released. This is with huge gaps been the releases and lower quality content. It’s been because of how difficult I’ve made it to develop and RJ has certain standards on effort. I would like to start off by stating that it is entirely my fault that these videos have not been released. The reality is that we have at least three hundred videos started that have not been released and are far from being put out. There are quite a few reasons why this is the case but I’m going to focus here on one. This one reason is probably the most inexcusable, is that 99% of this is my fault.
Its me Michael aka Absolute Zero and I am going to announce some changes I’m making concerning Youauthorus and my personal brand as a musician. Basically I’m stopping my pursuit of music for the foreseeable future. I’ve basically been failing to get my brand together for the last 3 years. Thanks to the help from really close friends, especially RJ , I have had some real moments of success trying to come up as a rapper, but I’m not stable enough or even capable enough to run this brand.
I’m going to meetup with RJ tomorrow for a event at Artistic Vibes. While I’m there I’m going to record some of the Football Talks I have in my Input list. Tomorrow I’m going to record the following topics: how good was Tom Brady, Do the Patriots need Tom Brady, Colin Kaepernick not voting, why are the Patriots so dominant, and why Football coach firings are ruining Football. We will start working on this at 7 pm.
The last post I made was not good. I spent too much time writing it. These posts/logs should be more off the cuff. The way I wrote the last post generally covers my problems that I can list causally off my head. (worked on it to make it better) I know that a few people expressed that my problems are normal (supporting me when they found out about my blog series), but they aren’t. I’m sure most of you reading this don’t know that I’m both sadistic and masochistic (S/M). I know that this alone isn’t incredibly uncommon, but I do fear that my masochism has lead me to create environments for my own failure (its a complicated and discover more all the time). Which doesn’t just hurt myself ,it also hurts the people around me and I have to change this (there are other major problems but this ties into them strongly, making them very warped). Why because I seek people out and wrap them into my world. – I want my brothers wife because its my brother’s wife
This is the input list ( Production list with dates for expected release) that I’m working with now. These are the things that I have to do, when I feel like I’m prepared for them (I create alot of problems, have alot of issues and trying my best to be a person that deals with those issues instead of dumping them on others). I’m putting them out so hopefully people can hold me to account. I know that the website had hundreds of readers and thousands of views. I’ve literally messed up all that up with my dysfunction. We’ve went into all these directions to help me because I was doing things that I was incredibly dangerous to myself and others. Rj did these things to help me find something positive I can do, so I could become more stable. The site was supposed to originally be just about Animanga and novels (stories that Rj would write and release). I feel really bad about this but because of my involvement we went into all these directions that has made everything confusing. This is why I started doing my Repentance Blog. In order to show the changes I’m trying to make, to Read More…