I have a list of ten songs that I currently listen to alot. I play these songs on loop while I work or am detoxing form powerful emotions. These songs have no current order of importance, as I am tired and judging that way would be hard (I have a hard time picking favorites). So I am going to list number three and two.

# 3

–BØRNS : Holy Ghost (After Dark)-

  I have become a avid listener of this band. I first started listening to them with their song Past Lives. Honestly, I think I first heard it in a Samsung commercial on Youtube. I tracked the song down (took some time), which ultimately lead me to this song.

This song was a bit higher for me but then I actually listened to the entire songs lyrics. Which kinda turned me off because of the severity of the blasphemy which the song acknowledges itself. I still like the song but not as much as I did before. The emotional state of the character in the song was so off balance, this doesn’t seem like love more like obsession. They can feel very close but when someone becomes your god you have clearly lose it. Any person in a state like this needs mental help and probably also has strong interpersonal delusions.

Sadly I have seen someone get like this kind of, wanted to commit suicide over a girl he loved so much. He was so obsessed with her, it was not healthy. She liked it for  a while but  did not like him very deeply and broke up with him. Thankfully he was not a dark and violent person by nature. Additionally he never developed any violence warps because of his obsession with her. He just wanted to kill himself because she did not like him like he liked her. It was really serious but we got him out of it over time.

To be honest he lost cool points for me because wanting to kill yourself over a woman because she doesn’t want to be with you is kinda bad. Alot of things happen in life, many people lose their lives and lively hoods helping people or just being affected by another persons transgressionary behavior. A woman voluntarily leaving you is not a major problem. To become that unbalanced is just…… Thank fully he started working on himself to become a stronger and better person. Also tries to keep himself at a moderate emotional level in relationships.

We have lost touch, more a me thing as I tend to do that after I help someone (If I am not needed, then I don’t see the need). I hope he still is doing well. (Working on the difference between Love and Obsession)

# 2

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